Topaz Jones - Gra** (Survivor's Guilt) lyrics

[Verse 1] I found love: A great distraction from checking the evening news and staying up on a Saturday ain't it? I'm just praying that I live past these deadlines They trying to make some footnotes out of headlines Is blood thicker than water when it's red wine? Pour some more Kool Aid, it's bedtime Some of us woke, some of us won't Some others choke under the pressure of the law No investors mean to sell, the closest thing they ever get to a semester that's abroad And the K over 9 only time they're checking for my dogs But I'm riding still, me and my survivor's guilt In these same shoes nobody thought that I could fill When my folks split I was playing Dr. Phil Blocked it out, did anything in my power not to feel Now it's all coming back, ain't that about a b**h? Time is money, I should spend it like it's counterfeit [Bridge] [Verse 2] I found love: I think it happened because I wasn't so wrapped up in acting like I'm a person who's perfect I'm seeing people who got a whole lot on they plate Only thing that ain't been served is a purpose It's hot as sh** in my kitchen, promise you'd probably say to hell with it and turn up the furnace Apologize for my grandma, but I've been rapping better Now I can't give no f** how she react to my curses I'm young enough to believe that the world's as small as this alternative universe we all so immersed in Dumb enough to be feeling for that same old attention you quenching your thirst with The true facade is to swallow the narcoleptic narcotic Sometimes I choose not to listen, filters we use to be vintage She wonder why so nostalgic, it's to acknowledge that Something in the future was missing [Bridge] [Outro] Don't be afraid, to speak your mind Soon you'll find, it ain't cracked up to what it's supposed to be Don't hesitate, [?] When you find love, when you find love