[Verse 1] Yeah, yeah this feeling like poetic justice Poetic justice this probably the first time In life I'm saying these feelings in public What if I just happened to love it Waking up every day to that bottle Some say it's an antidepressant Bet I feel better tomorrow Up on the east side of Chicago Where I seen all of my action Developed my taste in fashion Flashing every day out of havoc Every week was out in that club life Held a gun in that thug life None of that was for me But I still act like I condone it Mama I know you see me making that news That wasn't your proudest moment Just wanna see you smile Never ever had to deal with no trial Cause all you want is some grandkids Me to walk down the aisle out with Somebody I love Never giving up on your son [Hook](x2) Feel like I'm drinking my life away Smoking my life away f**ing my life away Still hold on to them brighter days Had me working my life away Slaving my life away That feeling of just giving your life away [Verse 2] That gave me a share all I've touched It's been a decade and some now After all of these women I realize she my first love now But we was in high school Was thinking too young how Am I gon' show you love That I've been looking for all my life Cause it's not something I know Don't even get that at home Or anyone around me at all My phone ring less in the morn' Once I heard that you mom pa**ed All I wanted to do was come find ya Let you know you not alone Sometimes that call a reminder Me and my new girl just fighting It's like we just hate each other Hate myself when I'm with her Hate myself when I'm without her I keep in touch with my n***as Let them know I'm ready for war See that's that feeling I want But I never get it from y'all Y'all rather party and bullsh** Next thing you know we all gone Saying sh** like man I miss them We ain't on this planet that long To anybody out there that's listening Just hear me out through this song Don't wait till somebody gone For you to love them that strong [Hook](x2)