Daddy smoked so the doctors called us crack babies He said i helped him get clean but sh** you helped raise me Granny house when we barely had food right Hand me downs when we would get ready for school right f** it cuz yall forgot where i came from Wish granny could've seen the way we all came up From the hood, food stamps we would hit the store and if you don't ball then you gotta sell dope And cancer runnin' through my mama but she still smoke My cousin got sentenced to 20 think it's still hope I shed a tear writing this but i still smile i ain't made it yet my sister said she still proud Worked day and night i made my first five bands and i got robbed the same night, n***as with pistols in they hands Right before christmas funny how that sh** work And i know the n***as that did it funny how it still hurt Ain't ever had sh** and i don't even want much, cuz ain't no picket fences where we all came up I made a couple choices felt like i wasn't ready, prayed for a month straight to let my baby into heaven No tears please don't want pity or no sorrow, cuz every choice i made make yesterday's better tomorrows The world on my shoulder still keep my head up, cuz i done did alot of sh** but i ain't never gave up Don't want no handouts i'd rather i'd rather grind, so if i ever ask, keep that so never mind Can't tell me 'bout a struggle you ain't live through b**h i'm still proof i battling every odd with everything but an excuse I never thought suicide a single day, wait i lied wanted to day ever since my granny pa**ed away Some pain i wouldn't wish on a man on this earth Cuz even with the time i still feel the same hurt Wanted to throw it all away right after my first show, cuz ain't no way in hell Horace shouldn't made it home And ain't no way my brother should've drowned in that lake, i should've been there to save him shout i'm sorry to this day They ask me how i'm strong well i gotta be, told me imma fail well i gotta see, but plus Aiden at home and he gotta eat Cuz we dont been to the bottom gotta get better Ain't that why God put rainbows after bad weather?