I tried to be strong for us mentally, physically, & emotionally. Love is such a strong and valuable word, i know that but yet, I used it. You gave me feelings I never had, new experiences. Can we grow together instead of destroying & pulling away from each other? You let our opinions, words, & past separate us from each other. Say "I care", "I love you", "Im here", & all doesn't mean anything if actions don't follow through with it. I'm showing you i'm there, trying to be a better man for not only myself but also us! Wrong for showing my actions speak louder than my words? Me? Wrong? And this is what you do & how you repay me? I know i'm not a perfect person. I make mistakes, i know that. But i have no regrets, especially that could hurt us. Am I that bad to you for you to do this to me? The things you said and done to me, I tried to just put it behind us & grow. Reason for doing what you did to me isn't okay with me, but its okay to you? You left me without wasting no time, no hesitation, & no worries right? Shared times, memories, we had were for what? k** time? No emotion in it right? Time ticks & it hurts me sometimes, can't lie. Didn't seem to hurt you though right? And the zones I had to come out of for you just to make happy was for what? Moments shared were special & memorable but held within me, now that's a issue for you? That's not okay with you? With the support & care I had as a best friend, also as your man just not good enough? Another women gonna want my attention, but trust and fear is built up like a wall, is this what you wanted? Man to women, not boy to girl was my logic in the relationship, what was yours? Infront of my eyes...that moment was painful for me, heartache, did you think of that? Of all the pain I dealt with, that was probably the worst of it all, have you had that feeling? Have you felt like that? Me losing my mind, the emotion & tears I shared were real tears & pain, were your tears real ? My mind is going a mile a minute with all unanswered questions, but i don't know if I'll get the HONEST answers. Love from you felt like it was a lie now along with all the other lies & things you've hid from me. For you to control, tell me who I can and can't talk to, what I can and can't do is wrong. You said & did things to me you didn't want said or done to you. Why? Is that right or okay in your mind? Was i wrong for being angry? Yet, I controlled myself so I don't put you in any danger. Real mindset for me was taking care of you, support you, be there. Put myself in danger before i let my family, your family & YOU in danger. Just know that I did... Think I... Of all, you were... Your gonna.. .... Well, your smart, I know it. Hopefully you can Solve It.