Thi'sl - Beautiful Music lyrics

They say life can be a monster That's why every day I wake up, it's the one I'm tryna conquer I done faced my fears A lot of nights I went to bed, the only thing I ate were my tears That's why you feel the vibe And you can hear the pain in my words, you can see it in my eyes Thank God that I'm alive ‘Cause I can count a hundred ways I know I should've died I'm alive though, this for all of my critics If it wasn't for the Lord, I'd tell you where to stick it Tell you where to put it, tell you where to shove it Spit it ‘cause I lived it, not ‘cause I loved it Now that's enough about the old me Talk about me all you want, you don't even know me They say I'm too hood with my lyrics That's ‘cause what I've been through in my life is what they livin' And I consider this a privilege A gift given freely to me, that's how I give it Of the same spirit, hopin' they can hear it Word hit they heart, they can be delivered Went to the church to get baptized Told the preacher that I keep on having these bad vibes Told him I done lived a crazy life By the way my days goin', I prob'ly be dead tonight He told me Jesus he can save my life And he can set me free tonight Repent and he can give me life And that's what your boy did, that's why I'm standing here tonight This is grown folks' music Time to show you kids how the grown folks do this Man you really ought to be ashamed 35 years old, now you tryna go and claim a game That's lame, lyin' to these kids Stuntin' in your music like that's really how you live Frontin' on these songs like you really sellin' dope Homie you ain't from the hood, you ain't pushin' no blow No, keep that junk up out of my face Keep it off my timeline, this here is my space And if it wasn't for the Lord's grace I'd be tryna follow cats, Snub Nose .38s That's how it goes in the Show Me State Momma mess the money up, you end up on a dinner plate And I hate it had to be that way Lord, forgive us for our sins, help us see a better way Blind ‘cause we lookin' through a dirty lens I was just tryna get a Benz But I end up losin' all my friends Now my dirty goin' to the pen They hit that boy with 55 He ain't did 3 yet, talkin' ‘bout suicide He told me every night he closes his eyes When he lays down to sleep, all he hears is men cry So don't believe ‘em when they say that lie Ain't nothin' cute about that gangsta life That's why I'm standing here to testify That there's a whole ‘nother way to live, I hope you open up your eyes