Thinking Plague - I Do Not Live lyrics

We go in circles all the time. We placate each other with rituals. We never think of breaking out, because it hurts us in our heads. Why can't I ever wake up and be? What is it that I can never see? When we are talking we are false. When we are working we are real. If we can trust, then let us strive to remember that we're ourselves. Why do you torment me with the past, when at any time d**h may find us? Though d**h stalks me, I do not live. Though d**h taunts me, I do not give. I know that you are using me. You have a need you can't explain. I let you use me though it hurts, and never let you know you are. I am also using you using me. We're just like two laboratory rats. Walking through the moldering d**h of aeons, feeling time's cold breath, knowing that it does not care. Only with this knowledge can I know who I am. Only when I know d**h do I know I'm alive. We go in circles all the time. We placate each other with rituals. We never think of breaking out, because it hurts us in our heads. Why can't I ever wake up and be? What is it that I can never see? Though d**h stalks me, I do not live. Thought d**h taunts me, I do not give. Though d**h stalks me, I do not live. Thought d**h taunts me, I do not give. I know that you are using me. You have a need you can't explain. I let you use me though it hurts, and never let you know you are. I am also using you using me. We're just like two laboratory rats.