The Unthanks - Free Will & Testament lyrics

Given free will but within certain limitations I cannot will myself to limitless mutations I cannot know what I would be if I were not me I can only guess me So when I say that I know me, how can I know that What kind of spider understands arachnophobia I have my senses and my sense of having senses Do I guide them or they me The weight of dust exceeds the weight of settled objects What can it mean, such gravity without a center Is there freedom to un-be Is there freedom from will-to-be Sheer momentum makes us act this way or that way We just invent or just a**ume a motivation I would disperse, be disconnected, is this possible What are soldiers without a foe Be in the air but not be air, be in the no air Be on the loose Neither compacted nor suspended Neither born nor left to die Had I been free, I could have chosen not to be me Demented forces push me madly 'round a treadmill Demented forces push me madly 'round a treadmill Let me off please, I am so tired, let me off please, I am so very tired