The Sharp - I've Given Up lyrics

I said I wasn't going to think about it again… (echo) Verse 1: And here I am thinking about it again The letter ready to be sent They find me on the floor dead I bled from the knife in my hand They look at the note and it says Dear friends and family I seemed to go ‘bout things casually Really it was angrily From sixth grade till at the academy I prayed god show himself so i knew he was real Get me out of this deal I feel like the third wheel all the time Get me out of this All the disses were against me I just can't handle it anymore (hook): Yeah I'm sorry I've given up At the beginning you wind up But I can't handle going on especially after the break up Verse 2: Sixth grade was anger issues Almost hurt my mom my feelings have a bruise Finger marks on her arm My dad gets into hunting and gets a firearm I want to run away they don't care about me Before I flee i call the hotline The guy rea**ures me My dad called me a b**h (hook): Yeah I'm sorry I've given up At the beginning you wind up But I can't handle going on especially after the break up Verse 3: Seventh grade i was done Away from life is where i wanted to run I found the knife my grandpa got from world war 2 I had the idea but couldn't follow through Eighth grade I thought about it again In pain is where I've been And they don't know I can't take this no mo'e (hook): Yeah I'm sorry I've given up At the beginning you wind up But I can't handle going on especially after the break up Verse 4: I checked myself into the hospital School makes me feel little They belittle my talent like i have none The hospital decided I don't need to be there Life ain't fair I have to go back to hell school Other girls rule while i look like a fool A tool for their popularity A stool for them sit up high (hook): Yeah I'm sorry I've given up At the beginning you wind up But I can't handle going on especially after the break up Verse 5: Graduation i'm never going to see them again I'd thank god but i don't believe, is that a sin? I'm going to a catholic school Being on twitter during prayer is against the rules I lost my faith when god didn't answer my call Now i got it all I got friends But not being suicidal ended when homework and winter came Things aren't the same Different vibe not as bad But friends i no longer have, i had they called me sharp I was never meant to have friends And i broke up with my boyfriend He won't take me back I make out with his friend We're friends with benefits but after he's a stranger He forgets i'm in danger of depression As a freshman i thought i had it made Dead poets society neil is who i identify with He says he gets it, that's a myth He makes fun of mental health The loneliness starts and i'm ready for life to end (hook): Yeah I'm sorry I've given up At the beginning you wind up But I can't handle going on especially after the break up Verse 6: I write the note and make the playlist I hope i'll be missed I wait to go to tampa to see my bro I feel low i can't wait to do it I feel like sh** I look up the best suicide methods I don't like where i'm headed But it's too late to call the hotline The loneliness and no comfort is mine I always planned on using a knife to take my life But my dad's gun will be more effective With what i use i'll be selective My grandpa's knife was lost but there's a steak knife downstairs I have to finish my note to say the heirs of my stuff The gun's locked up tight (hook): Yeah I'm sorry I've given up At the beginning you wind up But I can't handle going on especially after the break up Verse 7: The possibility's always in my head But i fled by lying in bed and shutting down I wake up and forget about it I admit that i'll never stop thinking about it Something i might commit I hope i can help people who want to quit life There are happy moments, we live for those