The Naked And Famous - Spank lyrics

I don't remember the first time But I think I survived Probably better not to try to recall 'Cause it feeds it, yeah it keeps it alive There are specific things That I have to do Day to day just to keep it at bay You wouldn't believe if you knew (Oh no, this isn't real) (Oh no, this isn't real) Here's a little secret Here's the best part This is gonna take me Right back to the start If I can't hear it If it's out of mind Wait until it settles Comes 'round a second time I don't remember the first time But I think I survived Probably better not to try to recall 'Cause it feeds it, yeah it keeps it alive (Oh no, yeah, this isn't real) (Oh no, this isn't real) Here's a little secret Here's the best part This is gonna take me Right back to the start If I can't hear it If it's out of mind Wait until it settles Comes 'round a second time I can feel it loom Up into my head It is in the room Panicking in bed I feel it coming on Taking over view Oh, please not tonight There's nothing I can do This is bigger than me This is in my fear This is pitiful I just disappear Swells up all around me Swallowed up inside Sell my senses if it Would make this subside I can barely handle I can pa** the time Staring through the curtains Up into the sky Where there is no Depth perception Keep preoccupied Self-deception Nobody recognises It doesn't have a name My brother is infected He's acting just the same Screaming like a siren Up and down the hall He just wants to stop it He wants to end it all I am just a child I have nothing more Than the basic functions I am running from I curl up and wallow My distortion Everything is Disproportion Suddenly I wake All is back again Everything is closer Morning is the same And I can't hear it It's way out of mind I will just forget this Till the next time