Sitting in the kitchen at 4am with the light off Trying to remember what it's like to feel alive Maybe if I go outside and attempt to retrace your steps around The Meadows Then I might trigger something that will take my mind off All these sandstone buildings and grey skies That do their best to keep me dead But never quite lock my feet to the ground Now all my halfhearted goodbyes keep replaying in my head Now that I'm barely ever around, and now that everyone is leaving I stayed up until 5:20 and listened to the shipping forecast To remind me of when I slept with a smile But nowadays I barely sleep at all I just lay awake with all these regrets And let them burrow in and expand that hole in my chest I never even knew that you had plans to go I was too busy fighting myself to even know So I guess this won't be the last time that I'm breaking down on the Peace Mile Now all these sandstone buildings and grey skies Have got me by the throat And there's no other way to go but down And all my halfhearted goodbyes They don't mean sh**, they're all redundant Now that no one's left around My pulse is nowhere to be found I've given up on color and sound And buried my heart underground I wonder if you'll ever come back But when does anybody ever come back