The Murderburgers - I Used To Hate That Life lyrics

I have flashbacks every single time I close my eyes I don't think I want to close them anymore I can think of a sure-fire way to stop them, but I don't have the guts I hope I'll never ever have the guts I don't want to live a life of "I've been worse before'”s anymore I'm losing days left, right and centre I just want a pair of eyes to get lost in And then a rectangular box to rest in And a room with a view at the hospital somewhere in between But the past is still haunting my dreams I remember thinking everything would be fine Then next thing I knew I was coughing up my stomach lining In a homeless unit at the top of high rise flats I was too embarra**ed to let Holly come see me I remember my dad telling me I looked like a junkie To be fair to him back then he wasn't too far off On a regular basis I seem to find that things I thought I'd left behind Still stop me from getting out of bed in the morning And keep me lying here until the sunlight disappears Then all that's left for me to do is start counting Every single spring that digs into my spine and ribs Until I give up because I'm too exhausted Then turn the TV on, set the volume to 6 then turn and face the wall And pretend that none of this bothers me at all I have flashbacks every time I look into your eyes So I don't think I'm going to do that anymore