The Murderburgers - December Ruined Everything lyrics

I haven't felt this low in a long time I haven't seen sunlight for 5 day And now the inside of my mouth is a mess Just like the inside of my head I know I shouldn't have dropped by tonight But I just didn't know who else I could talk to And December never seems to listen When I kindly ask for it to leave All of this uncertainty and these unfinished bus rides Are breaking me like you wouldn't believe So I just sit here grinding my teeth And think about that beautiful smile that's stuck in my head, I know she doesn't exist All she ever seems to want to do is talk to me at great length about our dead parents So I get up, get out and start walking And try to think of ways to make winter go And as I slipped and fell on black ice, I felt no urgency to get back up Sometimes it just doesn't pay to get up Just like most mornings Lay awake and think about the past A stairwell full of dirty needles and broken gla** Nights spent on cold wooden floors scratching scabies 7 years on, fingers still crossed, hoping that maybe Someday I'll sober up, and I won't be a joke And I'll stop smoking half your cigarette before realizing I don't smoke And I'll stop giving in to vices when I feel like life's a lost cause And I'll stop going to bed with a splitting headache then waking up with a sore jaw And I'll appreciate the small amount of time that you decided to spend with me Instead of learning to hate you so that I can get this over with quickly And I'll stop checking for bad news about planes flying out of Scotland In case they've crashed into the ocean with my family members on them But until that day, I know I'll always be Your pair of broken headphones on your loneliest ride home And you'll always be that song about a fresh start For which I can't seem to write the ending