The Lulls in Traffic - Laugh lyrics

[Verse 1] Look at my face, does it still look the same? You should know You used to feel it every day I'm defeated 'cause time has eroded And the things that I've chosen to remember are over, over But it's water under the bridge, sand at the edge of the ocean I stand alone hoping still but floating Must feel better How do you do it? How have you done it in the past? I used to laugh at you but now your wings are laughing right back Can't grasp you, can't ask you to reconsider 'Cause you already planted the seeds for winter It'll be back again to safely inundate me Blatantly painting, maybe on dream chasing Hating me 'til the king himself come around paying me, right Delusions of justice or karma coming through for 
me Arm in arm, you and me, I’d k** myself for that, for happenstance Or for our half romance to at least come to a full finish What's there to do but laugh? But I can honestly say that I forgot to do that [Verse 2] When the sun’s out I hate you, but by moonlight I love you I miss you Every night is a struggle When i was with you, I forgot who I was and things made sense Now my time is spent engaged in preemptive defense Building a fence around the cloud that hangs over my head 'Cause my joy is shattered gla** and my laugh is pretend So pretend you never 
met me Wish I could do the same Because I sold tomorrow short for a new today [Verse 3] I fell past the tree line, past the street And under the subway, my past repeats My last reprieve is 
the grief that fights on Rock bottom, limestone, spotlight, i am alone Ready to speak but my words lost their purity Invisible disease that is now blurring the line between real and fake I felt safe when I was with you You'd light up and laugh when I kissed you [Verse 4] It seems happiness is an illusion, and you've mastered it I can tell, it shows up in every photograph that I have Plastered up on my wall, subtracted Back from when you still loved me, past tense And if I failed at life but made you smile it was worth it Hypnotized on the surface level But a kiss from your lips is worthless Hello, wish I could take it back I'm sorry, didn't mean to make you laugh