no more smile and no more outrage apathy pervasive emotions narcoleptic no more smiles since f**ing sunday sinking feelings drinking early stinking septic stinking like a dream spoken outside in outside voices struck silent into shuddering and cold ground padded noises s**ing myself up a truth that i don't need last nights i don't believe no slowing down no faces smile no lips that frown grey to neutral every synapse stinking thoughts a pool of dinner wipe my mouth and hope to die this street is cold early morning noises this body reeling ugly early morning choices no more drinks till f**ing noon rotting teeth and gums a blackening that sets in soon and an all revealing smile just falling down won't make these hours turn around i wish i could remember what i'm trying to forget