The Kennedys - Angel and You lyrics

Your friends all said I was an angel Well, I don't know, but you can bet I've been to hell and back and then some Since then, son And I ain't seen no halo yet So what was all this they were seeing That you just could not see in me? I wanted neither d**h nor glory Just something in between If I ever need an answer I know it's forever lost behind the truth You'd know what I mean If you've ever been Somewhere in between an angel and you I've tried to live with some compa**ion I've had to run to stay alive But now I've put all that behind me Behind me I'm gonna grind my gears and drive I could have thrown my heart wide open But now I'm just too worldly wise Am I some kind of shotgun angel? Are you the devil in disguise?