The Joy Of Painting - I Didn't Think lyrics

My eyes are heavy My heart is weak My hands are shaking I'm losing sleep I fill my lungs Just to make it easy I wanna do whatever I want to Even with my reckless ways When I lay my head down I didn't think I'd make it through the day I know I'm young but I feel so old My ankles click My eyes roll I don't wanna be bitter I want a heart of gold