I try to stop all these Gay thoughts and feelings I don't know where they come from Oh all of these gay thoughts I've had trouble concealing Since I was fairly young I tell them I love you I don't want to lose you But they don't mind I hardly believe me I always deceive me Time after time Part of it's nature The other part seems darker Don't know what to blame it on Try to control my behavior But this is so much harder When I'm far away from home I tell them I love you I don't want to lose you But they don't mind I hardly believe me I always deceive me Time after time Gay thoughts again They fill with every drink Gay thoughts again Consuming everything Gay thoughts are mine But they don't feel like me These thoughts are somebody That I don't wanna be I tell them I love you I don't want to lose you But they don't mind I hardly believe me I always deceive me Time after time