[Hook] And, I'm grinding until I'm tired They say 'You ain't grinding until you tired' So I'm grinding with my eyes wide Looking to find a way through the day A life for the night Dear Lord You've done took so many of my people But, I'm just wondering why you haven't taken my life Like what the hell am I doing right My life [Verse One] I'm supposed to be the soldier who never blows his composure Even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders I ain't never supposed to show it My crew ain't supposed to know it Even if it means going toe to toe with Benzino It don't matter I'd never drag them in battles that I can handle Unless I absolutely have to I'm supposed to set an example I need to be the leader My crew looks for me to guide them If some sh** ever does pop off I'm supposed to be beside them That Ja sh** I tried to squash it It was too late to stop it There's a certain line you just don't cross and he crossed it I heard him say Hailie's name on a song and I just lost it It was crazy The sh** went way beyond some Jay-Z and Nas sh** And even though the battle is won I feel like we lost it I spent so much energy on it Honestly, I'm exhausted And I'm so caught in it I almost feel I'm the one who caused it This ain't what I'm in hip hop for It's not why I got in it [Hook] [Verse Two] We are not the same I am a Martian So approach my Phantom doors with caution You see them twenty four's spinning I earned them And, I ain't no preacher but here's my Erick Sermon So eat this black music and tell me how it tastes now And, f** Jesse Jackson because it ain't about race now Sometimes I think about my life with my face down Then I see my sons and put on that Kanye smile Damn, I know his mama proud And, since you helped me sell my dream We can share my momma now And like MJB No more drama now Living the good life Me and Common on common ground I spit crack and n***as' could drive it out of town Got a Chris Paul mind state I'm never out of bounds My life used to be empty like a Glock without a round Now my life full like a chopper with a thousand rounds [Hook] [Verse Three] And, still I'm having memories of high speeds When the cops crashed As I laugh Pushing the gas when my Glocks' blast We were young and, we were dumb but we had a heart In the dark when we survived through the bad parts Many dreams are what I've had and, many wishes No hesitation in extermination of these snitches And, these b**hes They still continue to pursue me A couple of movies' Now the whole world's trying to screw me Even the cops tried to sue me So what can I do but stay true Sipping twenty two's of brew And, Now the media's trying to test me Got the press asking questions Trying to stress me Misery is all I see That's my mind's state My history with the police is shaking the crime rate My main man had 2two strikes Slipped Got arrested and, flipped He screamed 'Thug life' and, emptied the clip