The Dangerous Summer - Weathered lyrics

I felt inable, I was lying on my side in the same clothes from the very last night. I wanna pray that I'm doing everything right. I saw my mom die for the very first time. She was an angel, God took her from the sky. And there's a million other people that I found who cared more than I ever will. I held that note out, I grabbed my bag and I left through the door. I let my hair grow. Put these words on my skin, I cannot relate. Would you believe in my songs if I gave them all to you? I can find the strength in my voice to call you back and say that everything is bad without you and I'm lost again, oh god believe I'm lost again. I stayed in bed and we took so much that I couldn't even sleep. I waited so long, though that wasn't even that bad. I never had to be a part of the world and I've been making that a goal for reasons that I cannot explain. Well I'm an optimist but only in a perfect world. I think I'm too stained from all the negativity from all the people in my way. Would you believe in my songs if I gave them all to you? I can find the strength in my voice to call you back and say that everything is bad without you and I'm lost again, oh god believe I'm lost again. I took a trip down south and felt the sun on my face, and it made things okay for a second. I drew a picture of my problems when I was going insane. And I focused on the currents. It's the funny thing about it, I never seem to worry that every single current's not the same. It's all about position, and where I choose to lay. And god I am going away.