Testify-Music - Self-Defeat lyrics
[Intro] What's good ya'll Lately this word has been in and out of my head We all know it, we all face it But how do we overcome it exactly? [Verse 1] When I first became a quote on quote rapper I had a few goals I wanted to achieve I wanted fame So I could fly around the world and holla at the pretty dames But all I ever heard from the haters was “Dude you stink! You should quit rap” Man I was tired of hearing that! So I honed my rapping sk**s, and focused less on the heals Days turned to nights And the weeks turned to months But I got tired of waiting so I took my flow to the streets and started k**ing beats! You can call me Ace Hood Cause it just got real, no Pinocchio! I'm speedin' past the competition, like its Tokyo I finally got a flow, I can call my own But I was still feeling empty, on the low Maybe the haters were right, and I should give up bro I hear voices in my head mocking me Taunting me Everyone's laughing at me! I know I can't save Hip-Hop So stop with all the yip-yap And let me wallow in my misery, till I drip-drop Lemme turn up another bottle of Ciroc, so I can ease away the pain… mane Ya feel me? [Chorus] Can I do this? (x2) I need to make it past the wall in front of me But I can't seem to get free I hear voices in my head yelling “You will never make it You might as well go ahead and face it You got no sk**s, man you got no bars You're better off trying to fly a car to Mars So take your lame raps and your Christian faith home You don't got what it takes” Self-defeat! [Verse 2] I had lost all hope, until some friends took me in And brought to a man who can take away my sin “Is you for real?” Yes I am, because they convinced me to spend my time serving God Now I finally got my mind right It still took few years and a few frights to see that I need the kings light, to be complete So I can get past this self-defeat But I had the mindset that all I had to do was write Christian raps And I would go to heaven I think it says that in verse number 7 As the years progressed I learned that it takes more than Christian lyrics I have to actually practice what I preach and stop believing the gimmicks That try to set limits to my God's flow But without the gimmicks in the picture, what's the point of rapping folk? Sex, Fame, Money? I once dreamed of obtaining it But all it did was make me love the world And everything in it Give me a second, I'll give you a minute About how earthly things can't take away, the pain, you be feelin [Chorus] [Verse 3] Drizzy said when the money stops flowin' And your fans ain't growin' it's time for retirement I mean retirement sounds good since my lyrics haven't been that inspiring I haven't written a great song in a long time I mean when I first started up, it seemed so simple Write dope rhymes Say a few inspirational lines Then everybody would flock to my Father's home But if I want people to come inside, I have to leave my comfort zone So I stand here wondering if I should listen to my inner self Or listen to the Holy Ghost inside myself?! Quitting would be the easiest thing to do Then I wouldn't have to worry about you or you telling me what I can't do I want to make a difference on this planet But there are people out there who take this life for granted and try to save the day Like Tarzan when he saved Jane from the tree But I need a real savior, not another wanna be (I need Jesus) Not to mention the devil's trying to get the best of me I'm sick of all the hate and self-inflicted wounds I feel like a whitewashed tomb Ready to be scrubbed clean of the filth that is obscene I gotta get it together Before they put me in a white padded cell Sharon Osbourne, you know what I mean (Woop) Self-defeat, Self-defeat [Outro] I've been lying to myself and listening to the haters all my life I think it's time for a change…