Sunspots cast a glare in my eyes Sometimes I forget I'm alive I feel it coming and I've got to get out of its way I hear it calling and I come 'cause I can't disobey I should not listen and I shouldn't believe but I do Yes I do She turns me on She makes me real I have to apologize For the way I feel My life, it seems has taken a turn Why in the name of god would I ever want to return? Peel off our skin we're gonna burn what we were to the ground f** in the fire and we'll spread all the ashes around I wanna k** away the rest of what's left and I do Yes I do She turns me on She makes me real I have to apologize For the way I feel And nothing can stop me now There is nothing to fear And everything I'd ever want Is inside of here Now I just stare into the sun And I see everything I've done I think I could have been someone But I can't stop what has begun When everything is said and done And there is no place left to run I think I used to be someone Now I just stare into the sun