TANUKI - For Here or To Go? (Intro) lyrics

[Verse] Since the dizziness came, I became numb to what I hear The layers of the music seem to disappear The whole picture there but colors bleed together Made a worse resolution cause my wavelength's tethered And I spend too much time driving the point to the edge And not enough seeking hows and whys and whens Waiting slowly for a house, a wife and then Giving life to a boy or girl or ten Thinking bout the future cause I fear the present Was never great at giving thanks or taking blessings If there's a heaven, I wish it made more sense Than a gold fence outlining what's destined Living pa**ively, avoiding catastrophe Worried that I never do at all what you ask of me And only half of me is wanting success Depression swallows all my organs then he spits out the rest All I wanna do is spit on stage Sell a couple records and bring hope to my age But it's too f**ing bright out I'm getting signed out Cause I hated what was popping and I lived in a cage So I'm trying and I'm mopping up my failures and all Giving meaning to my demon-spawned behavior that crawls Cutting lines till I'm eating but I'm sitting alone So tell me – Is it for here or to go?