Tabu - Dear Ol' Dad lyrics

[Hook: Julius Luciano] Dear ol' dad, dear ol' dad Just know that I've been so mad But now I'm grown, I should know Why'd you go, why'd you go (x2) [Verse 1: Kenny Siegel (Demetrius Capone)] I mean damn, how could you conceive me then leave me? (Understand it wasn't easy, believe me) I don't wanna hear that, a life with no pops isn't easy And all them loving families on TV deceive me When I was small I overheard moms call beggin' you to retrieve me and feed me She hung up and told me you were eager to see me, to spare my feelings But all you fed me was lies and stories to mislead me (Let me stop you there, I did have other reasons for why I could not be there I did have other seeds and I thought how could I be fair To not only you and your mother but as well my two baby mothers of your two other brothers) I do kind of understand that, I've got two baby mothers But take responsibility for what you do under covers Before I grew up I wondered why you never left a clue or a number Or at least came through once in a summer to leave food for my hunger (Well often, I thought of you as I slumbered I was just a screw up, often in jail doing some numbers Over ounces, you know the game, had issues I never overcame And so I never came over and over years I became more ashamed I never had it together) I feels it, but whatever you never had we coulda just never had it together Real sh**, no matter the weather for my kids I never will split I don't get it [Hook: Julius Luciano] [Verse 2: Andrew 'Dice' Dinero (Julius Luciano)] Pops, this is officially the first time we ever spoke I'm a better man than I would of ever hoped to be You see but I grew up hella broke (hey I heard you was self employed) Yeah I was selling dope Did what I had to do, but I ain't mad at you When men mature there's many roads we travel through I was on pain road, then anger boulevard, then I traveled through "I don't give a f**" avenue This just my attitude, but questions I have a few like How could you not raise your son? I don't have a clue They say the apple don't fall far from where the apple grew But I raised my son, so I'm the reason that ain't true (Okay you spoke your peace son, now let me speak my peace too First off, let me say I'm pleased to meet you I know you have a lot of questions but answer me this Did you ever consider I wasn't financially fit? To handle a kid, couldn't even buy Pampers and sh** Couldn't stay afloat so I had to abandon the ship) Oh word my n***a? You got some nerve my n***a You coulda been flippin' birds or even flippin' burgers n***a You use a lack of income as the excuse (But I couldn't make ends meet) In comes the excuse Look, maybe I should be thankin' you (Why's that?) Your absence taught me a lesson that your presence wasn't able to [Hook: Julius Luciano] [Julius Luciano] If we met in person then I would have questions But the first I would ask would be if you wish you would have stayed? You were never there so I don't miss you, I got over all my issues But I still wonder if you had stayed would I be changed