Syndrome - Open Letter lyrics

[Intro: Already A Thief] I'm sick and tired… Of all this bull sh** music… What the f** have I been writing? It's time for me to be real and talk about real sh** Because I don't own a f**in city… And I don't have PTSD So how about I write a letter? An open letter [Verse 1: Already A Thief] Dear myself and everybody hearin' this I am sittin' here at this, desk Writin' sh** that's serious I'm a f**in' lyricist Don't question it I'm furious Waitin' for a point? Well here it is: People don't know my name I could say I'm insane but really I just talk game I'm just wishin' for a better day Hopin' sh**'ll go my way I rap just to ease the pain Now they ask about the pain "What the hell's the pain from? Like a paintgun? Or a kid tryna make fun? Or a rap that you f**ed up on take one?" No shut the f** up Let me talk This ain't a game it ain't the same Don't say you can feel my pain Cuz you can't it's different Now please just listen to… [Hook: Already A Thief] The pain in my chest The ache in my head What's on my mind It's gotta be said I'm f**in' depressed I'm not, makin' sh** up I'm just, sayin' what needs to be said [Verse 2: Already A Thief] Do you get it now? Do you understand what I mean when I say it's real? It's me, I had to get that off my chest But now we've wiped the slate clean I am only 18 yet I am making Rap tracks bout real life, real sh** Yea I got a real knife and I got real slits All up in my real wrists Yes they are real scars And I'm spittin' real bars I don't even got a car Cuz that I cannot afford I couldn't get a Ford I still got four more years to go of school If I don't drop out I be livin' at mom's house Couldn't get a job now Gotta stick it out now Don't be givin' up now But I'm goin' up, down Like a roller coaster Got mom over shoulder sayin' "Put that on the coaster And you better put away the toaster" Wait… Do you see the life I'm living? I'm 18 years old and I have to put my f**in' Mountain Dew on a coaster? That's ridiculous I'm sick of this I really couldn't give a sh** I'd rather be up in my room And sit alone when no one's home Cuz I cannot deal with all... [Hook: Already A Thief] The pain in my chest The ache in my head What's on my mind It's gotta be said I'm f**in' depressed I'm not, makin' sh** up I'm just, sayin' what needs to be said [Bridge: Already A Thief] And if you can't see The devil in me Then you should proceed With caution you'll see That I am not what You thought that I'd be Cuz I am f**ed up Yes I am f**ed up In every damn way [Verse 3: Already A Thief] Yea, Don't come my way Just runaway and keep your faith I have no faith Cuz Satan's birthday is December 8th Cuz all I am is filled with hate So build a gate Cuz I'm a f**in' renegade Make this sh** an escapade And let it escalate and elevate I'm not afraid to bust a barricade You won't evade Say my name Give me accolades and attention That's all I need Did I mention the tension I feel it stretchin' When my mom looks in my fathers direction I can feel the connection disconnectin' Look who it's affectin' They should've used some protection Cuz I'm like bacteria spreadin' Just get disinfectant and k** me [Hook: Already A Thief] The pain in my chest The ache in my head What's on my mind It's gotta be said I'm f**in' depressed I'm not, makin' sh** up I'm just, sayin' what needs to be said