Symetrik - Sickeningly Dark lyrics

Witness all the scars that I'm dying to accept I only end up sinking under lies and the regret I'm trying to pretend that I /still believe in love/ I'm scared of all the emptyness I feel beneath the lust Trust me when I say that you are running from your heart I'll never know I love you 'till I understand your scars, I know they're all a part of you, such sacred little things You cannot be an angel if you hide under your wings I'll keep living life so tragic 'till I'm six feet under earth, and all these pills I smash are magic, they're the fix that f**in' works, - So I rub'em 'till they hurt, my eyes they flicker 'gainst these words, and I develop nervous twitches, metronoming to my verse I don't know what is worse, the fact I'm sober or I'm sane, cuz I am feeling like I'm dirt, 'till I move lower on the vein and on the fabric of this stage, I'm a just loner, I'm a stain but as the ink up on this page I'll make you understand my pain I barely need the rain, I've got the tears to drown out days, and I'll keep living like I'm waste, and I would hate to meet my gaze, so let me drink away my rage, and I will wake up in a daze, - If you grin or say "I love you", well I'll feel I'm out of place so peel off my face, I'll be a sticker on your heart, and if you swear your life's a play, I pray you're picking me a-part, you want it close to perfect, would you pick me if I'm marred? if you tell me "lighten up", well I'll be sickeningly dark (You've got such twisted reasons you've been bleeding me out, Disease that's eats ya heart and just poisons your mouth, Swearing with a purpose, you're just bringing me down, Always on an edge when you're hanging around)