Sylvan - Given-Used-Forgotten lyrics

Seek emotional collisions Live, we live through imprecisions Need imaginable visions To be vulnerable and so weak Meet fragile indecisions And see they're making it worth to live... No more weakness - I tried, restrained and kept it inside Grew up and now that it's time I can feel... Hesitating dreams and empty promises Kept it up but never knew what for Lacking all those treasures that I used to miss And then eventually to suffer more and more Propagating spaces chasing feelings prophylactically away Disgorging disinfected vacuums to stay Holding back my tears it could not ease the pain Always on the edge to lose it all Waiting for the reasons but they never came And while I waited I built up my proper wall Isn't it a paradox to hide and to avoid so sterilized Which in the end you realize exactly is for what you strived But now I'm giving in to visions that I tried to circumvent And visualize my new experience for real ... given, used, forgotten... Apathetically sick and restrictive Bureaucratically hollow and pale An abstemious agent of victims Agonizingly wrong it'll fail Meditative deliciously thoughtful Melancholic poetically free Just spontaneous sadness though painful With a pinch of a powerful seed Feed your soul with life - and you better believe it Breathe it right inside so you know that you need it Read your lines and find there's no way to delete it Deep within you hide... Even while I listened could not hear the wind Wasn't there a light I did not see? Always found an end before I could begin What I saw reflecting wasn't me Crucified a moment for eternity Spoke in words I could not understand And I tried to find it - tried it desperately But always saw it slipping through my hand