Sylvan - Uncounciously lyrics

Why does it change like an endless cycle where pa**ion turns to request for an unconscious aggression Hesitate to follow an inner compulsion Fertilise weed to feed furious violence Once silence eased my pain, now it tears me apart And a melody comes back I used to know by heart How to jugde a man whose sincere intentions Are supposed to die? Poisonous force deep in me drowning me unconsciously Anxienty rouses apathy, paralysed by a well known crime and emotions once called sympathy have left their bloody sign I take a look at my hands and feel ashamed Disgusted glance in the mirror and I cry in vain Poisonous force deep in me drowning me unconsciously Tears – a dried up source confessed Blue sea of failing hopes - oh no I can't endure deceitfulness - no more Now I hear it, deserted cries and loneliness again Tell me how to leave this way – I can't Behind the mist lies a memory A flickering fire still remains It could not avert their agony And all the suffering I left behind But can it still heat up the cold? Never again - I approached too far I know. Who can forgive me? There's a voice appealing once more Melodies that I've heard before Can't resist those bewitching who*es… A thousand sounds in my head they're promising so much deriding values and dreams And hope and trust and I feel in me The power destroy just to destroy Unrestrained emotions and joy Miserable memories… damn Poisonous force deep in me drowning me unconsciously