Sworn In - Pins And Needles lyrics

I can't think straight So don't wait up for me I think I'll probably be late I'll just count to three 1, 2, 3 Go I couldn't care less Past the point of distress With a mind full of stress and a body to undress Nothing else matters Cause nothing's real in this mess I digress I want to caress your skin so I'll give it my blessing darling I've learned a lot from my stay in hell I've learned I don't have a story to tell Because when things become too much When love turns to touch Self-destruction is my crutch Give me pins and needles I'm tearing myself apart Give me pins and needles I'm playing my part And this pain is only the start I promise I am romantic I swear But I don't have to be fair It's one sided this time So I walk this line Between safety and sanity Who am I meant to be? In love with the beauty Of tearing myself apart In love with the destruction Of playing my part And it's only the start Still wishing I was dead So I'll poison myself Too much beauty I suppose These stories in my head are all I can compose But as my skin turns pale My eyes just stay shut Filled them with pins and needles all for what? Filled them with pins and needles all for what?