Swoope - Ghost Dad lyrics

[Intro] My dad was physically present and emotionally absent I had to learn how to be a man from music, television, and my mom The issues that I have and have had with God Is because I didn't have an earthly father to be a prototype [Verse 1: Swoope] Yeah, yeah I could never make you proud enough And if I did, then you never said it loud enough For me to hear it, how was I to know that I should just Assume the lyrics that never came out your mouth was love? How was you to cope with me lookin' to mom so much? Was just a kid, who am I kiddin'? Uncle feelin' real nevеr, you and I didn't Cliff and Theo, nothin' we know, who am I missin'? I'd known that I wanted you homе more, you was not sensing Wishing for validation I was not gettin', it was tricky You was present, but was not giftin' All the things that you chip off your old block Needs 'cause he won't stop Feedin' for the folks around him just to give him value Not knowin' that he'll never ever get it without You But still tries, how cute Lookin' for Cosby from the TV, you was close, Dad I wanted Huxtable, you gave me ghost, Dad [Chorus: Cam Wallace] Ghost dad, why won't you come back? I want you to stay wit' me I need you to (Stay wit' me) stay wit' me But you keep goin' ghost dad Why won't you come back? I want you to (Stay wit' me) stay wit' me (I need you to stay wit' me), stay wit' me [Verse 2: Swoope] Yeah Now the thoughts I think of you was bittersweet Ain't no way I didn't see all the things you did for me Nice school, didn't sleep so one day that I could dream All the nights you didn't leave when the marriage wasn't sweet When Val's sickness and health really became reality Mama more sick than in health and you took care of her like a G I used to say you failed your seat, but that's my ego I see less of a failure, more of a farmer watchin' the seed grow And trees don't look to the farmer and throw shade They provided after the farmers harvested long days I was blinded by strong rage, you loved me the wrong way Provided a house, I needed a home to feng shui, was off What meant the most to me emotionally you wasn't there But for me to judge with limited context wasn't fair I ain't tryin' to change the past, I'm just hopin' that We can navigate the trauma wit' the Holy Ghost, Dad [Chorus: Cam Wallace] Ghost dad, why won't you come back? I want you to stay wit' me I need you to (Stay wit' me) stay wit' me But you keep goin' ghost dad (Why won't you come back?) I want you to (Stay wit' me) stay wit' me now (I need you to stay wit' me), stay wit' me now [Outro] I mean, how can you love a God you don't see And you don't love your brother who you do see? It's like, you know How can I love my Heavenly Father who I don't see When my earthly father has been, like, not the best to you? I, I, I'm learnin' not to say, I used to say my dad was trash I used to say that And then I had kids And it was like "No, he actually did a lot"