Swade Beatz - Letting Me Go lyrics

[Verse 1] Unh, young boy from the south side; got a lot of aspirations Family held me down; had a lot of emancipations Walked with me in love through all of my sinful fascinations And affirmed me in my talent whenever they saw a flash of greatness But I still barely finished high school Everyone one around looking at me like what am I doing Unh, and my uncle's out of prison now I got some homies doing dirt, I'm thinking about getting down Yeah, my surroundings captured me My father taught me to love the Lord, but I don't trust the masterpiece Now the tension grows thicker Add my insecurity to mix and get a clearer picture I'm not really supposed to win here And the odds are piling up now What's wrong? It's always been fair And I feel like giving up now [Hook] I can never stop God, no I see you without going blind Like a child, I rule the world, it's not mine You not letting me go; you not letting me go I can never stop time, set this world on fire Who can heal the blind Like a child, I rule the world, it's not mine You not letting me go; you not letting me go [Verse 2] A pastor so bold he came and told me to my face That I was living a double life and being a disgrace To the Lord and the church and His word and His spirit I was grieving him so much at this point that I could feel it I'm trying to live right in front of folk, but I'm even fake to me And to make it even worse, I got a lot of folk with faith in me Unh and I don't even know why; days are dark and grimy Got me feeling like my hope died; who is Jesus? And what would this man have me do now? And I remember my father's example; I said that I want to make you proud A lot of people boring me, but I'm still going out Smoke until my eyes roll back and I got that cotton mouth Living with my homie who's a Christian; he been good to me But I'm up at Georgia State with a girl and she look good to me I met Kenny, random; he said “Come and visit my church” Came and saw the way that loved the Lord And you know it hurt so much that I made my home ET We gon' move way down to East Point, and hold each other down At the time that's what the plan was; repenting from my sin I'm so convicted by the Lord's grace; never taste God in the marathon Until the day that I'm going to see his face [Hook] [Verse 3] Fast-forward five years, your boy's married now I love the Lord, and I love my wife, and he still shows me how To serve him well and tell the world around me all he's done for me The moment when I least deserved it, he gave up his son for me I burned a lot of bridges being young and dumb; I'm owning that I'm trying to be a better person even if you know the facts Living like a king is a struggle every day for me That new heart that he gave me, you can never take away from me [Hook]