Suspect - The Story of Two Sons lyrics

[Verse 1]: Suspect October 9th, the day the start of the storm Cops kicking in the door in about six in the morn' I woke up and my mother was gone I asked him where was mom He said, "Go to sleep." And I felt something wrong I wasn't sure what So I just went along But I'll never forget that day and how I woke up I walked into the bedroom and my mother choked up With a tear in her eye and a tear in mine I had a hell of a time separating wrong from the right And I say crazy sh** just to say it in spite My mom was beat She was raped Getting punched in the face Dad knew what the plan was It was the end of Frank He pointed a gun And he pointed it close This was the last time that Frank would sell dope My dad had enough He heard the hammer explode He knew what he did so he got on his bike Took off in the dark in the middle of the night He ran to the graves Hid the gun out of sight Then he crept back up the stairs just to my right I never really knew Maybe I'll never know But the pain has always been a lump in my throat [Verse 2]: Matteo Vagabond My dad did a different kind of murder... My dad was stuck in bottles Growing up I've always watched him wobble So of course I grew up unstable How so? Well no stable home or income I fumbled and toppled trying to figure out where I'd go My dad was cool with an absent bottle My mom wasn't bruised and I'd go to the park with him and had a blast You know But that sh**s in the past Cause you know My dad lived pretty fast And one night I was fast asleep Dreaming about titties, man Just started growing pubic hair But, anyways, my mom was scared I could tell by her screech And damn my dad sure went out in a blast Cuz as soon as I walked in the kitchen he had collapsed The blood puddle was still forming And what did that do for me? Well I guess it gave me a story I used to think my life was so boring and it's kind of f**ed up I felt the thrill seeing the blood Now I wonder if I'm a sociopath And now I'm a young man I never wanna see someone give up so fast But sometimes even I wonder if I can go down the same path as dad MDD is something you don't wanna have And I had it before my life went bad So perhaps I truly have a mental disease But I won't take pills unless they ain't prescribed to me I'll always wonder whats wrong with me