Superheaven - Last October lyrics

I spent the end of last october Crying on your shoulder. I'll just never win. We're going through this, I'm not even there. I'm never there My mind, it could use a little peace and quiet. My soul wouldn't mind a warm place to hide My ears are red and sore From always standing in the snow. My lungs need air I spent it on all the "thanks yous" and "goodbyes." I'm scared. I'm helpless. I'm shaking. I'm weak My bones, I feel them breaking I'm tired of losing against me I'm lost. I can't win My tongue is bleeding Red from all the things I can't say My hands are clawing at the dirt to dig up anything I can't say I didn't wish for this before I'm ashamed. I don't deserve to be here anymore I'm scared. I'm helpless. I'm shaking. I'm weak My bones, I feel them breaking I'm tired of losing against me I'm lost. I can't win