Supastition - Soul Searching lyrics

Y'all need some soul searchin' Gotta find your sole purpose Y'all need some soul searchin' Gotta find your sole purpose Dig deep inside, Dig deep inside, find ya Dig deep inside, Dig deep inside, find ya Find your sole purpose They say that I'm an old soul, trapped in a young physical I'm so cold, only to certain individuals I don't know Guess I matured at an early age From watching n***as prematurely shift to the pearly gates And witnessing your child arrive on the birth date, will help keep you grounded Reminding you why you here in the first place I need a place to rest my soul, so my destiny's controlled, so I guess, yes, that's my goal I'm not trying to fall victim to the liquor and the Newports, and other sh** that you thought, would break my stride That's the way I am inside, I make mistakes and fall from the 'greatest man alive' I got addictions of my own, I'm trying to balance out instead I got a past that seems to haunt me, every time I get ahead I try to walk the right path, and abide by the gospel In this day and age, that sh** is damn near impossible X2 You gotta take time, do some soul searching Make up your mind, find your sole purpose Everyday you feel so worthless Whatchu gon' do with your life Whatchu gon' do with your life So many nights I fight to clear my conscious, I'm just, being honest I think I sacrificed my life, despite the fights with ma-dukes over nonsense Somewhere along the line I gained the right insight I should have gave my life to Christ more than once or twice But it's the fear of back sliding that's pushing me back My spirit could be intact, but I'm so engulfed in sin That there is an opening in hell you can throw me in I guess I'm in the same boat with my friends Swimming up sh**'s creek again, and won't believe till I see the end If I don't shape up, I'll know exactly where I'll spend my afterlife Cause temptation is a b**h that's too hard to sacrifice I'm far from an angel, far from a saint And I really want to change, too, but deep inside I can't It's real, I got some inner demons that I need to work on I'm trying to get to higher ground like that old church song... X2 You gotta take time, do some soul searching Make up your mind, find your sole purpose Everyday you feel so worthless Whatchu gon' do with your life Whatchu gon' do with your life I need to do some soul searching, find my position in life Man, no one's perfect, yet, this is my life, picture my night's of insomnia I can't sleep a wink, anxiety, but care about what other people think I stare into the mirror, thinking 'what have I become' A serpent, a person, am I worse than that bum, of a father Who jetted on his first birthed son, left me and my momma stranded, marooned and abandoned But then again I'm not as bad as some would say But god ain't making no comparisons on judgement day I need to change, but I'm stuck in my ways I'm still suffering daily, I ain't really been feeling up to it lately Barely get enough rest in, hardly ever have an appetite, my fam think it's signs of depression That's not the case though, I'm just searching for my sole purpose Finding myself downtown, to do some soul searching.. X2 You gotta take time, do some soul searching Make up your mind, find your sole purpose Everyday you feel so worthless Whatchu gon' do with your life Whatchu gon' do with your life Take Time