We made love this morning and she went off to Best Buy and Bed Bath & Beyond But I stayed in bed because in my mind there was so much going on Chris Squire died the other night and it brought tears to my eyes Because I'd just seen the Italian film 'Youth' where his song played 5 or 6 times The love song 'Onward', Chris Squire was the Starship Trooper The angelic songbird brought down by Leukemia I heard I remember spinning the 'Yes' album with my childhood friend Christopher Who was battling Leukemia too and losing his hair We were in his brother's bedroom hanging out with his older brother Spinning 'I've Seen All Good People' and 'Your Move' over and over That green album and learning to play guitar became my obsession While everyone else was trapping muskrats and shooting Winchesters and Remington's Christopher died a year later the last time I saw him we were smoking laced reefer Some crazy guy was chasing us with a baseball bat and Christopher and I just laughed and laughed A warm sunny memory, a stringer full of fish It wasn't long after he was k**ed by a bus A divine intervention cause he was losing the bout Losing his voice he refused to suffer in a hospital cause he just wanted to live like everyone else and have fun and hang out We went to his memorial and his brother was a drunk angry mess He was crying and kicking and out of his mind and threatening to k** us So the next morning we returned to Christopher's grave The same graveyard where he and I used to drink Bud Light all day But on went my life and I bought all the 'Yes' albums Yeah even the 99 cent cut-out bin 'Tormato' And I saw 'Yes' back in Ohio, then at The Warfield in San Francisco And Jon Anderson had so much energy, he was jumping around and hitting every note But when we came home my girlfriend learned it was some other guy they found on YouTube from Ontario We were pretty far back that shows you what I know Years later I got a call from director Paolo Sorrentino He loved the song 'Onward' he said it was a “great American ballad” and I said “No.” “It's by Chris Squire”, and he shrugged like whatever, and puffed his cigar And he flew me out to Switzerland and he filmed me playing the song all day long Me singing 'Onward' to some extras and Michael Caine out on a lawn And for anyone out there who never heard it trust me 'Onward' is a great love song Alright And I finally got to see Paolo's film on a day off in Milan The main theme of the soundtrack was that dreamy old love song The movie was dubbed in Italian and Steve Shelley fell asleep But thank god for 'Onward' because they cut all my other scenes I think of John Paul Jones and John Entwistle and the great ba** players of that time But the guy who cut through like no other guy was the guy who played his Rick with a pick, Chris Squire And I laid in bed and I thought of those old albums 'Close To The Edge' and 'Relayer' and 'Going For The One' and 'Fragile' The last one 'Yes' ever made was 'Heaven & Earth' If heaven is real then none belong there more than Chris Squire and my long lost friend Christopher.