Sumner Becker - Before I Let You Go lyrics

[Intro: DAP The Contract] Yeah what you saying? Have I spoken to *beep*? He did what? f**! [Hook: DAP The Contract] If I ever make it happen, would you ever come and see me? Or would you only check for me when I'm all on the tv? They say when you lose your friends That's when you know you're getting older, believe me! And I ain't f**ing with nobody, y'all can leave me! I only learnt one thing this year And that's that, ain't nobody really ever gonna need me They don't care whether you play your part They don't play fair, they only care about what's theirs, believe me! And if I ever, let you down If I ever let you down [Verse 1: DAP The Contract] Listen I was the kid with all A's at seventeen right And then they didn't let me in, and that don't feel right They must feel a type of way about the way I hid in plain sight They sleeping on me, I'll just settle for my dreams, goodnight! Mama told me it all happens for a reason But I don't believe it anymore I lost the meaning I'm losing faith in mother nature like, "This ain't the season! Raining in the summer?" Yeah I'm home You couldn't make believe it The world ain't never gonna change, it's just a cruel thing "Errythang Corrupt", I'm talking way before the Cube thing If even Jesus didn't make it nor did Hussein I don't get it we all the same, so f** are you saying? I wish I never had another mood swing You ever felt like you just heard the f**ing moon sing? And jump up in the sky and try to climb up on a moon ring? But mama Karma want the rock, god her a mood ring She took our girls away, I heard it on that news thing I never check it, but I had a little news fling The USA came in today I don't know who wins, or who loses I'll probably be sleeping through the whole thing I'm clutching on my head, 'cause beggars hands all on my window But if I drop the bill, they'd all come running through my window But one day I'mma win, I just don't know when though! One day I'mma quit, but I keep blowing on that endo It's just what my n***as into, they might blow it till the end though I hope I don't lose anybody but sometimes I think so I just hope the homie wrote a will, like why you gotta sniff yo? Hope he quit it, told him "quit it!" But deep down don't think he will though He ain't got the will to, 'cause that snow is whiter than the winter He said our time is coming, wait on it! This time, I just don't want to 'Cause today he might be here, tonight he might be dead I don't know where the f** his head is at I don't know where he went to, what he went through If he dips again? Still won't know where to head to! Tryna get through to him, but scared that won't be helpful 'Cause what if I just tip him over the edge? That would be hell full f** I look like tryna tell his mama, "Be strong, it's all mental" Had a dream she came for me Yeah I'm the one you wanna step to, still a little kid Can't forgive myself for giving into all the peer pressure Thinking 'bout the things that he was into All the things the n***a been through, the things he was getting into The chicks we were giving it to, getting it in, yeah getting it into She said I'm new around the block, I'll find some sh** I been through That's what I told myself, but I ain't been through sh** sh** it's just what it is, so f** it! I'll vent about the fact that I ain't got no sh** to vent to I wish I didn't always live inside this bubble On a hill, or in a muddle, am I in? Or is it f** you? Can I live a little bit? sh** I'm just dying to live! So here's a joint that you can die to Light another L, this is a joint that you can light to Just talking to myself, this ain't a n***a I can lie to [Hook: DAP The Contract] If I ever make it happen, would you ever come and see me? Or would you only check for me when I'm all on the tv? They say when you lose your friends That's when you know you're getting older, believe me! And I ain't f**ing with nobody, y'all can leave me! I only learnt one thing this year And that's that, ain't nobody really ever gonna need me They don't care whether you play your part They don't play fair, they only care about what's theirs, believe me! And if I ever, let you down If I ever let you down [Verse 2: DAP The Contract] I was the kid that was too shy to talk to people The kid that never left the crib, just didn't feel the need to Thought about ending it, but then I lost the needle Went and dropped it on a record, found somebody I could speak to Well, so to speak, I mean I'm talking to myself 'Cause ain't nobody ever gave a f**, why would they need to? sh**, I mean like me too! I used to give a f**! But ain't nobody with you 'less you giving them a buck! f**! But f** it Who makes a show and still comes late too? Venue ain't giving a f**, they don't pretend to What? It's only ten to, know I came a little late I know that's that sh** people hate, can I explain at least attempt to? Had some other sh** up on my plate, had to attend to No, didn't intend to but my n***as going mental! He really tripping, everybody think he mental But while I was getting turnt? He went to church. I wish I went to! And little bro don't spend too long in ivy towers 'Cause when you come back down, they don't want those flowers They say, "You ain't ours", you spent too many hours Talking rich with the man, with all his rich man powers, you coward! I told myself that when I turned twenty-one I would tell my big sister that I clouded up my mental * "Yeah can you hear me? Yeah that's what I was up to I was up to no good, but you the one I still look up to, forgive me!" * [Hook: DAP The Contract] If I ever make it happen, would you ever come and see me? Or would you only check for me when I'm all on the tv? They say when you lose your friends That's when you know you're getting older, believe me! And I ain't f**ing with nobody, y'all can leave me! I only learnt one thing this year And that's that, ain't nobody really ever gonna need me They don't care whether you play your part They don't play fair, they only care about what's theirs, believe me! And if I ever, let you down If I ever let you down [Bridge: DAP The Contract & Sumner Becker] I don't know why he keep blessing me I don't know why he keep blessing me I don't know why he keep blessing me I don't know why he keep blessing me I don't know why, I don't know why, I don't know why 3x [Verse 3: DAP The Contract & Sumner Becker] Check See I just wanna do what I was made to Not what I was made to, that would make me hateful But I'mma study hard, screw what all you guys do I only need one guide, and I'm that guy too! I guess God too, but damn, how long he finna hide? I had faith but lost it quick! It's like I planned to Still tryna find my plan B, at least I plan to Still tryna scheme so made a beat that I can plan to I'm gonna keep working harder than these mans do Aim for cloud 9, I got a itch like Mandzuk- Swear I'll never be the fall guy like Randy Mantooth And I swear in one year, once I get outta here I'm gonna blow and be the greatest MC, just like my dad do Study Cla**ics, yeah I'll do it till the end too And when we graduate, I'll hit the stage for Last Cla** too! And yeah I k**ed this joint, 'cause I had to! Yeah this is something you can vibe to Yeah this something you can ride to Just walk with me my n***a, don't need a sunroof What you been up to? [Hook: DAP The Contract] If I ever make it happen, would you ever come and see me? Or would you only check for me when I'm all on the tv? They say when you lose your friends That's when you know you're getting older, believe me! And I ain't f**ing with nobody, y'all can leave me! I only learnt one thing this year And that's that, ain't nobody really ever gonna need me They don't care whether you play your part They don't play fair, they only care about what's theirs, believe me! And if I ever, let you down If I ever let you down [Outro: DAP The Contract] And I say f** them other n***as 'cause I ride for my n***as f** them other n***as 'cause I ride for my n***as f** them other n***as, I'd ride for my n***as I'd die for my n***as, man f** them other n***as I'm always ever mindful Just tryna keep your mind full...