Style Council - Long Hot Summer lyrics

I play out my role Why i've even been out walking They tell me that it helps But i know when i'm beaten All those lonely films And all those lonely parties But now the feeling is off-screen An' the tears for real not acted, anymore I'm all mixed up inside I want to run but i can't hide And however much we try We can't escape the truth and the fact is Don't matter what i do It don't matter what i do Don't matter what i do Don't matter what i do Don't matter what i do 'cause i end up hurting you One more covered sigh And one more glance you know means goodbye Can't you see that's why We're dashing ourselves against the rocks of a lifetime (in my mind different voices call) What once was pleasure now's pain for us all (in my heart only shadows fall) I once stood proud now i feel so small (i don't know whether to laugh or cry) The long hot summer just pa**ed me by