Sorry momma that i made you cry Never apologized for that Christmas night Thought that i was gonna die All these d** but it couldn't take my life Thank you lord Thank you lord But i'm still takin these d** Can you please open the doors Can you please show me the light Shoulda stook to Mary Jane f** all of that dirty sprite Please don't believe the hype Please don't believe these n***as sooner or later they gon die We ain't eva had a life Ms Jane i am sorry for choosin ms codeine But the high is so good and now i am a fiend And now i am nothing Turn nothing to something f** everybody no friends that was just a dream I'm that lonely mothaf**a I been drownin in depression but ain't eva been a s**a Tell these n***as shut the f** up They ain't makin any noise Claimin that they got the toys But be runnin to the boys Why they runnin to the boys But i'll give a shout out to my n***a tank One of my n***as that still hasn't forgotten me Tell him that i'm doin fine but still addicted to the lean And when is blackout comin back that was them better days Melo came thru almost every single day Nooch came thru every time he had a break We had the best producer shout out to my n***a jay Went to mikes house every single Friday Now i'm on my lonely Antisocial Takin all these d** now i'm feelin like a zombie Dead and alive at the same time Do the same crimes Have the same vibes Yea i have the same vibes Yes i live in the projects Struggle hard struggle hard boy i've been the reject Boy i've been neglected Boy i've been dissected Every time i open my mouth i am shunned After that i fall to d** After that i fall in love After that i hope i find a gun But never find that gun So my words become my bullets And the mic becomes my victim I am trapped inside this system You can tell by the way that i'm thinkin n***as claim they shooters but ain't eva on the court n***as swear they ballin buyin sh** they can't afford Lost minds in disguise ain't none of this right Thotties over women got these young kids feelin right Yes i like my women cla**y Up in cla** independent you ain't gotta ask me Good girl that goes bad in the bed sheets Lookin s**y Who the f** said wearin less makes you s**y Girl you got the right mind So just act right Forget about love and just do you All these shows programmed you to want a prince Shawty you can be yo prince And you can be the sh** Don't degrade yourself for likes on the gram Cause people treat you by the way you see yourself That's some real sh** I ain't no republican i ain't no democrat We need a rebellion we the new age b**h f** that old age sh** Yes i feel ageless Playin no game sh** Bout k** all my stress on my kurt cobain sh** I been stressin for too long hidin all my pain b**h Now i let it pour out f** that goin dumb sh** And i've been needin this Cause i've been poppin all these pills and i dont feel like sh** Everyday i stay home and i try to make a hit Everyday i stay home and i try to make a hit I've been lonely all my life And i dont think that ima eva survive I question everything and never fall to the hype Shoutout to my n***a pro and shoutout to snipe Shoutout stain He understood withdrawals and my pain I miss meli and alfredo I miss meli and alfredo