Strange Vacation - War in the Dark lyrics

I think I'm going insane Running this through my brain I wish I could just feel safe For once in my life I know it's never been hard To keep the blood in my heart I just never held it all inside like this before But I'm ready to let it go So say what you want to say now That I'm your liability 'Cause you don't really wanna go or stay But I don't care 'cause I don't want you near me 'Cause I wanna run And you wanna watch me fall apart And I just wanna feel something More than just myself I get so bent out of shape But you won't get me to break I just thought of you as more, as something real to me But it's showing that I was wrong The end is only the beginning of this mess I am so sick of waging a war in the dark I gave you my heart Waging a war in the dark I gave you my heart And I can't get back to the start When I gave you my heart and I wanna know I wanna know what it's like just to be with you I wanna know what it's like to be with you