Stoupe The Enemy of Mankind - Revelations lyrics

[Verse 1] I used to try and conform for acceptance Then I broke free from the norm and put it all in a sentence Desperate for answers I overlooked the questions Feeling senseless a kid with manic depression So distant, self confidence non-existent Void in my soul I looked for something to fill it No desire for living so I took a track and just k**ed I wear my heart on my pistol which means I'll never conceal it It's getting harder to breathe and sh** behind this mask And harder to live peacefully with a spineless dad f** all the times we had, you always came to me pissed off Which makes sense seeing all that you do is just sh** talk About how you f**ing hate me and I never used to say sh** But today I see perfectly clear no lasik My future rewritten because my life at stake at every minute Now I'm convinced that it wasn't sh** to begin with I'm sorry mama I know I only proved you right About how eventually I'll just end up ruining my life I wish things could've been different but it's just too late now I'm saying my last goodbyes don't cry it's my time to be laid down [Hook] Tell all my siblings I'm sorry I should've been a better brother Wipe the tears out mama's eyes and take good care of her And tell all of my tios that they made me a grown man And not to blame the fam for my actions that's just who I am Nobody understands it's something that I have to do I'm not looking for compa**ion I just hope I gave y'all a laugh or two Some call my aggression a symptom of my repression Or call me a sick kid and call this my cry for attention I call it a second chance to start from scratch Having regrets about who I am and not able to live the facts The doctor saying I should look forward instead of back at the past But my pineal gland implanting visions of how I'm living is bad So I'm loading the clip hoping to get some beautiful bliss. (damn) I can't believe I'm going thru with this sh** It's a sickness, having the mind a misfit Now its no pain or love, ima just taste the gun Ima just die young like all the thugs do Make sure u give my shorty kisses and hugs too Because I love you and that's the truth Don't worry when I come back through Things will be better and It'll just be me and you forever. (gunshot) [Hook]