I'm back Back to cutting back to smoking Back to being me I cut, i bleed, it hurts no more I won't do this no more for no who*e I wanna be something i'm not I want to be accepted i wanna be skinny Tired of being decepted & used To the point of being abused If it takes me to meth & takes my final breath Then let it I don't care As long as i can share what i never shared before Why can't no one understand? To comprehend what i want is easy Waiting for a friend that's not sleazy My heart dead at its core I can't take this anymore I wanted love so much, it bunched my life up Letting girls stab at my heart & tare it apart Now i think its time to let you see How much i hate being me I cried so much, it put me to sleep To numb my pain i cut so deep I hate waking up Knowing i'm going to hate today But this is my way of living The me now hate's the me i have became