Stona - Conquest to impress lyrics

What do i have to do just to impress you? Only if you actually knew How much of my life i sacrificed away all just for you I don't know if you knew But I been on a conquest to change my families fate And my god its been 1 hell of a test. i been giving it my best But i feel like all you have for me is hate And to you i'm just a pest I can't make up for what i done in my past And i'm sorry for what ever i done, i just hope its not to late I swear all i do is slave away Since the day my little brother pa**ed away Hoping some day that this crazy dream of mine will pay Then maybe you all will finally hear what i have to say I know since "Pa & Day", died, the pain was so hard to hide Thank god for our pride But i'm sorry... I lied I lied when i said i was fine I just lost all that was mine (Family) I was lost inside my mind Trying so hard to go back to when all was fine.. I just need a little bit more time I'm escaping from my mind I'm coming back to claim what is mine And watch, i'm prove to you i'm about to shine I no longer feel alone I'm no longer going through this sh** on my own & I feel like i have something to prove I'm sorry if you don't feel my grove But know i'm about to make my move and let loose And when i do I promise i WILL NOT lose