Stimp C - Lately (Interlude) lyrics

Where my friends at now? Seems when I need 'em only few are found Lately I'm just feelin like I have none around When I'm searching for a voice and I can't hear a sound And it got me feeling down.. feeling hopeless Peeking out but I go un-noticed Freaking out, I been losing my focus Need to get a grip.. thats why I wrote this.. I can see this ending Blowing up in my face. Every evening I've been trying so hard, I've been reaching But I'm just a f**ing ship thats been sinking Did they come to my first show? f** no, and you know why it hurts though? Cause I always f**ing care about them And that sh** really got me feeling like they don't Even care about me. Still mad at my dad And it seems like getting pissed is the only thing that Seems to soothe me. So please excuse me If it seems like my angers been a bit unruly Truly, I just wish it was different Now I'm reminiscing, and I'm missing former friendships And the kinships. Everything I feared Happened, been lost for the past two years.. (past two years..) the past two years? f** that I've been gone for the last few years And I've cried true tears while I faced true fears And I lost two peers, don't know what to do here Sometimes on the outside I fake like my futures lookin' all so bright But I know on the inside The portrait painted isn't always my type.. Go