[Intro] [Verse 1] The fountain was off This is the first time I've been back to the city in months I'm trying to hold it together but irony's found cracks in the foundation [Verse 2] And you know I try so hard to be some great white hope But I can't shake the feeling that tonight I'm gonna end up shaking in bed alone [Chorus] I'm not a self-help book; I'm just a f**ed up kid I had to take my own advice and I did Now I'm waiting for it to sink in [Refrain] Expect me standing tall, back against the wall Cause what I learned was It's not about forcing happiness; It's about not letting the sadness win [Refrain] I don't have roses in the closet But I've got pictures in a drawer It's everything left in me Not to stare at them anymore I walked upstairs and shaved my beard I felt like I was holding sadness here (I was holding sadness here) [Chorus] I'm not a self-help book; I'm just a f**ed up kid I had to take my own advice and I did Now I'm waiting for it to sink in Expect me standing tall, back against the wall Cause what I learned was It's not about forcing happiness; It's about not letting the sadness win [Refrain] I don't have roses in the closet But I've got pictures in a drawer It's everything left in me Not to stare at them anymore [Outro] I'm not a self-help book; I'm just a f**ed up kid I had to take my own advice and I did I'm not a self-help book; I'm just a f**ed up kid I had to take my own advice and I did