in anxiousness i'm twisting drift into restlessness this prison keeps shapeshifting walls i think you suffocate me constricting everything so quick to give what you have no idea will one day cost forgive my skepticism what you call "insecure" i call protection i can't trust anyone who just gives away their whole world no one gives that up for free no one like me it's cost to much to open it up to just anyone I don't think you hear me do you want me to say it again? no, i don't think you'll hear me can't you see it's making me sick? no, i don't think you can don't think you care at least not as much as you swear and so i'll have to say "goodbye"(till you bring it up again) subtle as a hemmorhage from none to everything shovel in and take what you can find cold as a starved constrictor bites like a soft caress consuming with determined pride do you think it pleases me to push you away again this should have ended long ago... but you need to dig it out again so it is as it began there was never us there's only you