Staten - Madonna lyrics

I don't care when I die that I won't be canonized All that really matters is what I look through my mother's eyes I hope I'm not alive when you hear this But baby don't worry, it scares me too, I mean it I've been having such a hard time coping with my failures I feel so defeated, lost purpose and meaning I'd stop if I could if it'd slow down my breathing I haven't felt good about myself in a while Tried to compare my life with the stories in your bible To see if I could be holier, less lonelier But talks about doing good never made me feel Like a saint, it only made me feel like a coward a fake I'm not afraid of not being remembered I'm more afraid of not enjoying the time I have remaining Every single feeling that I've felt has been felt before And the only thing I feel is fear, never less, nevermore What scares me the most is that I'm still young You're burning so bright, there's more things to come But I don't hear Calvary calling your name Apostles in bottles, come on, keep me safe I don't deserve a second chance I choked too many times I'm surprised I'm not dead I shouldn't be called your family I'm guilty for trying I just wanted To belong, to feel loved For someone to give a f** It's been too long since I've Gotten some help What the f**'s point of living If I can't be myself? I should just get over it all I'm nothing special It's all gone, tell Calvary to hold on I'm coming soon But I care what you think about me Say nice things about me Say something, you love me, please Speak good at my funeral Cause even if I'm dead I'll still live for your approval