Staten - Garbage lyrics

How could you ever love a dirty man? This garbage came and stained my hands I'm filthy, that's the sad f**ing truth I'm no good for you I hope you're not embarra**ed of my faults The failures that I engulfed Indulged but I was starving for you Split this bottle in two How'd you find a lifeline As long as the eastern coast? I'll let you down eventually But thanks for keeping me afloat Every day I missed you Every night I waited for Every night I stayed awake Hoping you'd say, “I love you more.” How could you consider me as family? I abandoned every single need It's hard to give what I never had And receive what I lack I f**ed up first but I'll never admit All this pain and this hurt and I still can't feel sh** Cause when I got myself termed my feelings went with Along with pride and an urn to put myself in I want to burn the shoes that touched the ground when I ran away It's not their fault but god damn f**; I can't help but blame them I miss our walks and all the talks after 11 hour shifts Cause that was the first time I felt like I belonged Every day I miss you Every night I'm waiting for Every night I stay awake Hoping you'll say I need you more Every day I missed you Every night I waited for Every night I stayed awake Hoping you'd say to come back home