Starlito - Mood Swings & Mrs. (Outro) lyrics

I got this vision in my head Of this new and improved me You don't approve of it? Then so be it You would a**ume the least Influences from the streets I grew up amongst Gs as well as thieves And jealousy, so inevitably, it's hella beef Growing up almost got the best of me I never sleep except for when I can barely breathe From inhaling trees, that lean got discontinued Please let me continue Growing up, you don't know what I seen from out my window I wanna apologize for the dog I once was Maybe I still am Either way, my apology is sincere I'm wishing you was here Or maybe I was there Wish I had tried to care We used to f**, you fell in love Then I was out of there Charge it to my head and not my heart, shorty I was not aware Of how you'd make me feel in future tense I know what Future meant when he said He wanna show you off to the world Just so they can get jealous I ain't wanna lose her Who knew I was so competitive? Relationships are repetitive Now I'm taking all of these sedatives Got me looking up to the sky like "Why you keep taking all of my relatives And best friends?" They tell me, "Charge it to the game" But the ones that are still here know It'll never be the same f** some c**aine f** the dope game I got focus and my whole life changed Workin' with what's left I don't know what's right, mane For a ho or for a O-Dog You could go out like Kane Or your co-defendant lieutenant Giving your first and your middle name How real is what you call "real" really? When it all falls down, don't you all feel silly? How real is what you call "real" really? When it all falls down, when it all falls down