Spilled Blood On My List Of Heartbreaks - Still Awaking lyrics

(Verse 1) I can't stop smelling the roses Even though I've had too many doses The streams of light hurts my eyes So much pain, I can't rise (Chorus) Never had anyone to miss Never had a chance to risk Never had a special kiss Never been on anyone's list (Verse 2) No one's ever on the other side of me It doesn't take a genious to see I'll always have a cold side of the bed I'll never get to fight over what you just said I'll always need my meds I'll overdose until I wind up dead (Repeat Verse 2) (Bridge) And the d** never help me out I'll never feel that love, what's it about But I really don't need a heart Because I'll rely on the d** to bring me closer Bring me closer to my d**h (Quick and painful) (Chorus) I can't forget the roses They'll never be for me I'll never have those chances To put your heart on the line That heart of mine It'll never be fine But it's still early to be thinking Cause I'm still awaking