Spence Mills - Ambitions lyrics

[Hook] Stop the press, everything's a mess You can look alive, but you are not at rest And ideas are flowing through your head A million miles an hour while lying in your bed A lucid life you never thought you'd lead Are you working everyday Are you working just to bleed? I know [Verse 1: The Act] You don't just get wasted, alcohol is in your veins Kinda like that needles venom, It's a f**in' snake Actin' as a replacement, talk about wasted This life is not a f**in' game Gotta live with your mistakes What have you got to gain? But you party rock, and rock the party Hoppin' bars, to far to stop Oh, yeah, you love Bacardi shots And wakin' up hardly, not Possibly behind bars Hard knocks, barley and hops Throat is parched, you're so thirsty Oh, look, you slept the day away, again Now you're pushin' thirty And you accomplished what? Besides proving you're just another lame Lookin' real dirty Not even in the same lane Makin' a huge waste outta your brilliant f**in' brain You're given a gift and you sh** on it Burnin' out your filament Blowin' out your candle's flame You're insane Just peep the definition Are you feeling it? You do the same thing Day after day [Hook] [Verse 2:] Always claimin' you're gonna change See, to me, that's strange You refuse to learn from your mistakes? It's personal abuse Like your brain is stuck on replay, replayed Played out, for f**s sake Dumb yourself down? Tryin' to numb your feelings by burning yourself out Yeah, you can be cool, but you'll age and be a clown While I'm lookin' down, with the weight of a crown While my nieces and nephews stand by my side With their sadness they try hide Deep down inside But you can see it in their eyes Because you didn't give 'em a reason to be proud Pride, deprived of a proper father figure in their life Don't leave them behind Now there's a shroud of dark days and dark clouds That follow them around And all 3 of us knows what that's like But why, why am I the only one who decides To shape myself up try, to strive for a better life [Bridge] [Verse 3: The Act] What's so different about me and you? I'm honestly confused We were all dealt some sh**ty hands But you gotta make do Take my hand, take a stand From me to you, get a clue I have such a different view And I wanna share it with you Self-inflicted brain damage Is that what your pa**ion is? What about your ambitions? Can you even grasp it? Do you wanna be in casket? Do I really have to ask it? Look at your reflection Nobody achieves perfection But going the wrong direction Isn't going to correct it Try for a second, some introspection Find the kid in yourself Maybe I'm kiddin' myself... Find the section in the cell Where it all went wrong Have a long talk And maybe he can drag you outta hell It's too hard to tell But I hate that you fell You were my idol And now my heart just hurts And it yearns for you to heal The truth is I barely know how to feel I'm disappointed, angry And sad, that's real And this isn't only about you It's to both of you And you know who [Verse 4: The Act] We were born cursed But I don't know if I could handle seein' Either one of you in the back of a f**in' hearse I'd rather die first Keep it hidden, but this sh** hurts Now this is written And I'm puttin' in the open A description, ready for ridicule At people's indiscretion From a broken poet Who hopes to enthrone the ocean And hold back the tide And save a couple lives My goal is noble And I stay partially whole Cause there's a couple a holes And I'm choked up, words, a throat full I hope you Hear this, I know you Will cause I'ma show you One day, we'll stand shoulder to shoulder Together as brothers And carry the weight of our boulders