Spearhead - Positive lyrics

Make me, make me sweat Til i'm wet, til i'm dry But then wipe this tear from my eye Haven't felt this warm in a long time Even out in the bright sunshine In lifetime of springtimes I fall into your arms With my heart pumpin' on Like a bubblin' dub track Like a garlicy hot tonque and lip smack I did some contemplation Before we got down to this consecration Maybe baby something in you kiss said It was an impetous For me to rethink this If i love you Then i better get tested Make sure we're protected I walk through the park Dressed like a question mark Hark! I hear my memory bark In the back of my brain, Makn' me insane... ...like c**aine (chorus) But how'm i gonna live my life if i'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? How'm i gonna live my life if i'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? But how'm i gonna live my life if i'm positive? It dawned on me, it seemed to me This is unusual scenery This red light greenery Make me feel kinda dreamery Thinkin' how i used to be Arrive at the clinic Walk through the front door Take a nervous number Then i think about it more About all the time That i neglected Makin sure that I was protected They took my blood With an anonymous number Two weeks waitin' wonderin' I shoulda done this a long time ago Alot of excuses why i couldn't go I know these things and these things i must know 'cause it's better to know than to not know! (chorus) I go home to kick it In my apartment I try to give myself A risk a**essment The wait is what can really annoy ya Everyday is more paranoya I'm readin' about how it's transmitted Some behavior i must admit it Who i slept with, who they slept with, Who they, who they, who they slept with I think about life and immortality What's the first thing i do if i'm h.i.v Have a cry and tell my mother Get on the phone and call my past lovers I never thought about infectin' anotha All the times that i said "hmmm? don't bother." Was it really all that magic? The times i didn't use a prophalactic Would my whole life have to change? Or would my whole life remain the same? Sometimes it makes me wanna shout! All these things too hard to think about A day to laugh, a day to cry A day to live and a day to die 'til i find out, i may wonder But i'm not gonna live my life six feet under (chorus)